100%, Completely, Totally Free Day!

Today is a rare one….no appointments for the entire day. And unexpected – I got a call this morning that the one student I’ve been aiding for this week (an hour each morning and afternoon) is staying home. Our school is closed this week, so I haven’t had to work the usual 4.5 hours a day, only 2, and I have no lessons scheduled this evening. How fantastic to not have to clock-watch!

So mentally freeing! I’m gonna read and ignore the clock. And what’s this photo have to do with anything?

Some see desolation – no crowds of people, no entertainment, no fun. I see freedom, exploration, plenty of life – you just have to look under your feet and above your head. Appreciation for the environment that supports us and keeps us alove. (That actually was a typo, but I decided to leave it – it’s a useful new word to describe that which keeps us alive and makes us feel loved at the same time).

Life has plenty of challenges – sometimes I can only manage one minute at a time – but I’m in love with life!

Day Off

Am savoring a rare day of freedom. My body is demanding laziness. I kinda feel like shit though – sinus headache, sneezing, and so tired no matter how much I sleep..

So I spent the morning browsing through Facebook pages I subscribe to, an indulgence I don’t normally get. These pages are the source of my inspiration, which sadly hasn’t gotten a lot of new ideas lately. Sometimes you gotta just say fuck the world and hide out in your house.

I guess that says a lot about my priorities. Instead of using this time to…..oh, I don’t know…..create a course to sell on my website, clean the house, practice, resume my erotic novel, a hundred other things, I’m on the internet looking at erotic photos. I love doing it though!

So there. 

Silfra

I’m certainly no diver, at least in the literal sense. But the earth never fails to excite me. There’s a place in Iceland called Silfra where one can dive between the North American and Eurasian continents. For real…….you can touch both continents at the same time.

Also, the water is the clearest on the planet ~ it’s cold glacial water filtered through porous lava.

Which has nothing to do with violin, but it does make me feel passionate.

Pursue Meaning, Not Happiness

You read that right. I don’t believe in pursuing happiness, but living my life to have meaning. That what I say and do are important to me, and also important to others. I can get all philosophical and shit and write about the fact that our talents aren’t meant for our own benefit, but to serve the world. Talents mean little unless used as a matter of service to others.

Here is an article that better explains.

My absolute favorite poem is George Gray by Edgar Lee Masters (Spoon River Anthology) ~

To put meaning in one’s life may end in madness,

But life without meaning is the torture

Of restlessness and vague desire—

It is a boat longing for the sea and yet afraid.

The last four lines make the point I live by. Try to, anyway. Something to think about.

She Is the Source of Your Primal Desires

“A wild woman is not a girlfriend. She is a relationship with nature. She is the source of all your primal desires, and she is the wild whipping wind that uproots the poisonous corn stalks on your neatly tilled farm. She will plant pear trees in the wake of your disaster. She will see to it that you shall rise again.”
~ Alison Nappi Author // #RebelleClassics

Magic

Believing in stating your intentions, telling trusted people your dreams and passions, putting it out there. I had an unexpected opportunity to spend a night in the city with some fellow musicians, go to a musical, even met one of the pit musicians, a friend of one of the people I was with.

As you might imagine, I was giddy, with appropriate decorum, of course.

The point – say what you want, and expect to be led (pushed, dragged) to it.

None of those I was with can actually help me in a practical way, but indirectly. Show me what’s out there, what it looks/feels like.

But….what an experience that shot me with determination to get there, wherever there is.

And I can use more of that, as practice is almost always drudgery!